will it ever leave? this feeling i have
it fills me up and leaves me empty
brings more joy then humanly possible
and enough sorrow to break me
one would think that after broken promisses
and dieing dreams. after all the truths and lies
this feeling would go away
after a month of not speaking.
after thousands of tears shed for him, and me
after the searing pain, and the burning kind too
then the daily grinding kind
after you relise you dont think of him as much
after life has blow in soap opera conditions
and now life has settled without a purpose
there is happiness but the depression never ends
and then there is this feeling
the one that logically should have left long ago
or at least turned into something ugly
ugly, but easier to deal with
but this feeling for some reason will stay pure
this feeling that is more than just an emotion
its a life changeing event, and earth quakeing
this feeling of course is love. for him i swore
it would never leave. and i was right.......
it's not bright and shiney any more
the edges are scuffed with the reality of life
what once was silver bright was not silver at all
but it is steel. for me anyway.
scuffed, bent, washed with tears, but never broken
no, never ever broken. it will last a life time and more
this love i have for him, for him so beautifull
and so tragically human.
i will love you forever, mon seule