so life sucks.
i stay up lateish the only way to sleep is to take pills, i do nothing all day and i'm tired all day. GAWD this is summer i wish alisn's car was fixed!! T.T
i have debated cutting and swallowing a bottle of pills. good times.
i think all emo kids are liers cause if you look at their hair and makeup dat takes long time to do!! when i'm all emo i either ovoid the mirror or look and think "gawd what a peice of shit i am"
i need a job.
i need a gun and a BULLSEYE on my temple!! not that i would shoot myself..... cause what the hell is the point? ppl debat suicide as a way out, i have come to relise that death is just a bullet in the massive list of SHIT you have to do. so really it doesnt change shit.
i'm bored out of my mind and dont have anything to read and we now have basic cable, so there isnt fuck to watch at night. i could watch a movie... maybe i'll dig out something worthy.. HA all i want to do is return to my vegitive state. actually what i REALLY want is release from my zombie mode but i think i'm stuck in a damn rut.
no ride. no licsence. not money for one. no money for insurnce. no money for gass. no job. NO WHERE TO GO!! i finally understand why g-rod just floats through places just following jobs.

so now that i sound like a insane prick, have a nice day

lol i never update this shit... go figgure right?
so i saw this pic online that inspired me to sketch something that looks like shit..... >_> i wont post it... no scaner
any way i wish i could draw worth a damn, i get these ideas and cant scetch them. like a bleeding peace sign. or a simple little bunni that looks like he just saw his parent fucking... lol

poor bunni....

meh, i also need to design some babie blankies for Akkna..... i think i'm the only one who thinks it would be awesome if she had a girl... but whatever. i'll make unisex blankies. half asian babies are the cutest ^.^
i should make him some goth blankies.... that would be funny shit...

and dresses for the damn wedding.....i wonder if i could make jewelry for the bride!!! o.o omg i hope the bridesmaid dresses are red....

lol okay i'm done. didnt even say a thing about mynself... spose i should like do that?
















bunnies are awesome....










i need to make myself a damn tote bag *sigh* soooooooooooooooo lazy..........

i should give it convertable straps to make it a backapck if needed!!! omg i wonder if thats possible.....

so DA is being all homosexual on me. i'm going to post my emo poem here instead. i'll post it as art when DA is strait.


so i fixed it all up!! you wanna read my emo ness go here [link]

pretty much what that sais. i ranted in me myspace and i decided to post it here to offend more innocents.

i call it "God and other shit" you can thank some uneducated prick for my rantings

so many people have so many questions about him and what he represents and why the fuck things happen as they do. i say, open a fucking book and read a little. why do people die? b/c eve was tricked and adam followed her willing even though he knew what was the truth. aka dont eat the damn fruit. when god asked wtf? whats wrong with you? adam blamed eve and eve blamed the snake. and they both got banished from edan. COWARDS. if they would have sucked it up and said, yeah i ate the dfamn fruit i'm sorry people wouldnt fucking die and we would all be in edan right now.
why did god put the tree of knowledge in the garden? he gave us freedom of will. of choice. the freedom to chose does you no good if there are no choices. tell you what i'll lock you in a padded cell and tell you that your free to do what ever the fuck you want. oh... but um... you have to stay in there.
why is there pain in the world? b/c the world is full of sin. ohh. that sounds oh so mellow dramatic. what it means is sin is bad. there fore if there is sin around us bad things will happen. bad things cause death. like natural catasrophies. you kno if this world was in perfect balence then LO AND BEHOLD these things would not happen.
the world is dieing. look it up a little. our ozone is dissapearing, and we cant do shit about it. the world is getting hott, and fast. while the green house effect is what keeps us alive its now killing us. and that is our own damn fault too. the earth is built to withstand changeing temperatures, after all its happened b4. but this time its happening to fast. and you know there used to be allot more kinds of animals? every day species go extint. and there arent more comming around!! ever flux of everything kills something else. congradufuckulations everything is crumbling around us.
the goverment knows about all this bad shit too. and they could possiblly fund research and shit to fix it but NO it all goes to the millitary. dont get me wrong, i am pro war. lets go kill other fucking ppl. WOO. but you kno.... if the lack of ozone, the higher temperatures, the losing of animal species that make this thing called earth work(that btw we cant duplicate in labs) then we will all kill each other. after all who has more nukes than us? hhhmmmmm?? who would kno better?
so the whole reason i have ranted about this is b/c someone asked why do people die? what does god get out of it? answer: ppl kill ppl (no fucking surprise) and god doesnt want us to die, he wants us to be happeh. but that wasn't good enough not to eat the damn fruit or suck it up and own up to our deeds now is it?! and now ppl will blame god for all the shit around them. you kno what? dont blame god b/c other people suck. blame them.

and done.

so.. i made an avi to support TVD
YAYZ
i'm super speacial awesome so i made mine in paint xP

*sigh* so much has happened since my last journal entry
well... whatever...

i have now prints for sale, profits to TVD. so they are pics of fluffy kitties ^.^
hahaha actually its one cat.. >_>

ciao
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