so life sucks.
i stay up lateish the only way to sleep is to take pills, i do nothing all day and i'm tired all day. GAWD this is summer i wish alisn's car was fixed!! T.T
i have debated cutting and swallowing a bottle of pills. good times.
i think all emo kids are liers cause if you look at their hair and makeup dat takes long time to do!! when i'm all emo i either ovoid the mirror or look and think "gawd what a peice of shit i am"
i need a job.
i need a gun and a BULLSEYE on my temple!! not that i would shoot myself..... cause what the hell is the point? ppl debat suicide as a way out, i have come to relise that death is just a bullet in the massive list of SHIT you have to do. so really it doesnt change shit.
i'm bored out of my mind and dont have anything to read and we now have basic cable, so there isnt fuck to watch at night. i could watch a movie... maybe i'll dig out something worthy.. HA all i want to do is return to my vegitive state. actually what i REALLY want is release from my zombie mode but i think i'm stuck in a damn rut.
no ride. no licsence. not money for one. no money for insurnce. no money for gass. no job. NO WHERE TO GO!! i finally understand why g-rod just floats through places just following jobs.

so now that i sound like a insane prick, have a nice day